PW IS OVER.

Omg omg omg omg omg pw is over!
i swear ive waited long and hard for this day to come.
all those sleepless nights, those panda rings, those eyebags that made me 'look like i come out from the rubbish bin' in the morning (quotes jinyi) has officially been a thing of the past.
From PI, to EoM, to thinking of a good topic, to GPP, WR, I&R and finally OP, YES YES YES IVE DID IT!!!
Words are not even enough to express my immense joy and relief.
Our group has come a longggggg wayyy. From those days we spent in school trying to brainstorm for intersting topics, to thinking of games, to editing countless mistakes in our WR, to thinking and making the theme for our slides, photos, everything, we really did it today. We gave it our best, didn't we? :) And we didn't let each other down. I'm so proud of that :))
Our ACTUAL OP today went quite well, and we were lucky to be in the same OP classroom as Jo's group cos they're v nice and they help calm us down and I think both our groups can get along v well. So glad our group went through the OP experience with Jo, Jinyi, Ad, Gladys and Leslie. Ahh what a sweet closure to everything :)
Daddy God has blessed us, I'm very thankful. Just got home from Ad's house and am going out with Jo tomorrow to get stuff for camp.
Freedom, you taste extremely sweet.

The end of PW has too marked the end of my J1 year. Looking back, many good and bad things have happened to me along the way. Getting into detention, failing tests.. but along the way getting into dance exco, and making really great friends from class. I'm extremely thankful and I feel awfully blessed for the good friends I've met this year esp Joyce, Jolene, Pam and Jinyi. I must say these 4 have stuck by me through everything. And they've been the ones that light up my otherwise boring days in school. So cheesy but so true.

Went Tamp 1 after school. Went to the rooftop to play games and walked around and around then went to Ad's house for awhile for donut-cum-uno party with Hakim and Leslie. Lol omg Hakim's hilarious I swear. the 'close one eye and ahya just close two eyes!' and the 'islam does not allow you to touch girlssss' was freaking funny lah omg can die laughing.

Very happy day! Am gonna have very sweet dreams tonight :)

Note to self: Make up your mind and stop being confused before the people around you end up getting confused along with you as well.

All our efforts, all boiled down to that single presentation. Everything counts this time.
Tomorrow, we're gonna speak with so much confidence as if our project is one of the best in the world.
Our group sure had its ups and downs, but nat's right, look at our OP slides now. We've come a long way huh :) Our presentation skills have improved alot too.
I'll pray tonight.
That all our hard works will pay off.
I'm sure Daddy God will bless us :)
Love, D.

I'm having a break from OP meeting.. today's meeting is quite productive yet slack at the same time (who says those two can't go together?)
haha well..
Diane looks like a maid today. Her hair tied damn low damn funny. Then she like stand at the door wait for her Ma'am or Sir to come back.
Nat's playing the guitar.
Hakim and Garret are romanticising by the swing.. I'm serious.

Haha ok such a pointless post, gtg now tata!
OP tomorrow, God bless us!

When we get bored during OP meetings..

Hakim started it!

We are often unaware of the things that may get us into deep shit.
Yesterday I did something real stupid, senseless, reckless, something that could have gotten me in deep trouble. My regret and fear only started to subside a little when Hakim did something which I must admit was pretty clever of him to do so. Hence the previous post. Wow Hakim, your light finally came through! Impressed. And i gotta thank God too <3

Today we're camping at Diane's house. I'm gonna take nice photos as a keepsake for one of our last pw meetings.
And omg, I SWEAR MY LEFT EYE FELT LIKE AS THOUGH THERE WAS A PIECE OF CELLOPHANE STUCK TO IT LAST NIGHT, though there wasn't. Think it's my contacts, might be overdue. Definitely don't want to go to OP with a sore eye, so I threw it away. This morning I woke up and I guess that cellophane melted cos I don't feel the pain anymore (:

Hakim, YOU THE MAN!

The irony of life
Some people go by the saying, 'Go with the flow. Take one thing at a time. Treasure every moment you have, don't think too much into the future, just cherish the present'. While others live by the rule, 'What's life without a dream, what's life without an ambition. No ambition? That makes you a loser'.
I stumbled upon this today.
Having to fill up a drop form from H2 to H1, even though I'm appealing, it means that I have to choose between dropping Bio or dropping Econs. It's tough, it may seem minor to those who who already know what they want to achieve in life, but definitely not for me. I do admire those that are entirely sure of what they want to achieve in this short amount of time we have on Earth. But that admiration does not equate to me being sure of what I want to achieve, right?

Honestly, I'm torn between dropping Econs or Bio because I'm not at the stage where I am capable of telling myself ' Okay, I want to do something related to Science' or 'I'm sure I want to do something related to business'. I think it's hard, for a 17 year old to (sort of) decide on which career path I would like to take.

Not that I've no ambition. Just that I haven't found THAT SOMETHING I want to do for the rest of my life, that something that I would be able to both enjoy yet reap monetary benefits at the same time. Ambition? I've had, tons of them.
I wanted to be a doctor, a nutritionist, a childcare teacher, a chef, a writer, a photographer, and in recent years, something got to do with marketing.

I'm now down to two. Medical or Business? I've been told by almost everyone I asked that I have the look of businesswoman and at the same time, I've also been told that I look like the kind of doctor that will end up ruining people's life instead of saving them. Hahaha hmm, maybe after I stitch up a person's body I'll go.. ' Oops, I left my scalpel inside!'. Haha I honestly think I'm more inclined towards Business then Medical, even though Bio is easier to score than Econs.

Ok, I shall stop this contemplation or I will never end.. Right now, I'm gonna dig in to my Mos's Triple Prawn Burger and Clam Chowder mummy bought for me, while I look at some pre-requisites sites on NUS and SMU.

Oh, and did I mention, I totally screwed OP Q&A today 'cos I said 'Get it?' to F. Honestly didn't mean it in a sarcastic way but it came out wrong. Oh well, I learnt something today. And I was pretty relaxed during OP presentation (as compared to the previous one) because half the time I was just looking at Jinyi's sleeping face.. Haha

There'll always be sunshine after the rain.

Cheena A's is over. (I thank my wonderful xu lao shi who has always taught me so amazingly patiently during one-on-one sessions. She can repeat like the same thing five times and I'll still go 'HUH?' then she'll smack my head, lightly, then nag and nag till I rmb. Major YAY ZHE LI ZHEN AN JING CAME OUT EVEN MRT ALSO COME OUT FOR ZUO WEN. wahh i love her man)
I love my pw group now :) :) :) Abit late to love but then again.. it's never too late! Mr Quek praised us today ahhhh sense of accomplishment although I haven't been of much help to the animation digital shizz but hey, moral support ok. and all my brain power was used to come up with that awesome concept of De-V. Hahaha I'm just trying to say here that everyone has their strengths and weaknesses and that's why we are working together as a group. To cover up one another's weakness, to boost our strength and to give something good.

Love your family. Love your friends. Love your life.

HAHA TODAY ADNAAN HUBZ SAID 'OI!' TO JINYI WHEN SHE HUGGING ME AKA HIS WIFE! I FEEL SO LOVED :)

Was looking for photos on Fb for OP..

And I found this old photo :

So cute right! Carisa my 5 year old cousin, then 4 (:

AND THIS!

Snowing in Germany last year! Miss our Munich and Berlin days :D

This week has been one of the busiest, most frustrating week I've had in my entire life. There were so many things being thrown at me simultaneously that I almost went on an unintentional hunger strike.

First came the bad results.
One of the worst thing I absolutely detest is studying hard for a subject but still screwing things up due to last min not enough time to recap problems. Bio was a disappointment for me, though I passed but I expected myself to do much better. I'M REALLY HAPPY FOR OUR CLASS THOUGH! Yay 18/09 rocks :) :) We are currecntly 3rd in ranking for bio and the 2nd most improved class! Beat that man. Ms Poh really did push us alot and she's a really good teacher :) Our marks went uphill after she came but I guess academic stuff takes two hands two claps. We put in our best effort too! Then there was econs, argh all in one day it was a VERY BIG DISAPPOINTMENT. I generally like Econs as a subject, much better than chem or math. But it was one of my lowest this term. Oh well, everyone has their off days I guess? Although I disappointed myself badly this time, I ain't no failure and i ain't gonna give up!

Then Chem was the real big surprise. I have been failing every single chem lecture test, class test, jcts but I found a new way to write notes and I guess I put in a bit more effort for chem this term than I did last term? Paper was tough ttm though, I felt damn stupid during the paper. Seriously, esp for Gas Law and the deduction question sigh. So after getting back Bio & Econs result which were a goner, I knew that I had to get a pass in Chem or Math in order for me to get promoted to J2. Negative thoughts kept flooding my mind cos I know that my chem and math really cmi. for this term at least and they were my weakest two subjects. I prayed and prayed in the LT2, while I wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone else but the person I was messaging (sorry, don't mean anything here) and tears started coming.

Adnaan Hubby handed me my chem paper. The word failure was already imprinted in my mind then so when I flipped open the paper..

Praise the Lord! He has helped me, yet again! He gave me 47 / 100 for chem!!!!! I know that sounds sucky but from a 26 to a 47 you gotta be happy man:D Daddy God rocks :)

Second blow was when I knew I HAD to drop to H1 for one subject. Devastated, I started questioning myself what I really wanted and well then I started to consult Mr F. and asked why I couldnt appeal. But ahya long story.. he came back the next day and told me I could appeal back to 4 H2 so mhmm, i'll ask my sis for her advice and think abt that but I know I will most probably end up appealing back.

Third was the worst. OUR FIRST OP REHEARSAL. BAD SYNCHRONISATION, SCREWED UP ANIMATION, GETTING ALL JITTERY, SURPRISE VISIT FROM PW TEACHER, HAVING A GP TEACHER AS ACCESSOR AND WORST OF ALL, SURPRISE! YOU HAVE TO ANSWER Q&A! How sway could we get seriously. No groups before us had to answer Q&A and obviously we were not prepared at all. screwed up my Q&A cos I was too jittery. It was just really bad.

I guess things have gotten slightly uphill after that OP, for our group that is. Our slides look much better now, it's time for revamp! Can't wait for it to be completed :) And Friday I was so frustrated and all that I flared up at Diane and we were both like arguing back and forth under LT2. I felt my anger and frustration purging out of me, verbally, and I think nat was quite shocked too and asked me to chill. PW brings out the true colors of everyone huh.. But I was very surprised and happy she didn't stay angry with me after that :) We cleared things up, apologised and I think our Pw group is much, much bonded and happier together now. Anw that was also the day when Jo dropped her lappie and it crashed on her. I could really sense her immense fear, frustration, regret, helplessness all rojak-ed into a bottle of emotions wanting to explode. I was really frustrated that time over PW stuff and I'm not the kind that can force a smile and cheer someone up when I myself is feeling down. I need to cheer myself up before I can cheer others up. so sorry jo for not being able to accompany you that day to get your lappie fixed. But I heard jinyi did a great job at accompanying you :) And they watch movie somemore haha now I have no one to watch My Sister's Keeper with me :(

Anw, since that day, things were cleared up and our pw group became much happier together.
Yst was one of the happiest pw meeting ever :) Nat treated us to macs and starbucks, and diane did quite a few slides. Yay love you Di-An!!!!! And Hakim was hilarious, as usual.

Haha I know he doesn't read my blog so I shall tell you sth funny that happened:
(Hakim was looking at a webpage about sagging pants and hiphop)
Me: Uh, Hakim what are you doing? Why are you searching for sagging pants?
Hakim: I don't know. Random la (you have to picture his voice saying this then you'll get why it's so funny)
Me: WHY SO RANDOM?!
Hakim: Cos this morning I was walking to school then I realised my pants were baggy and then I wanted to check online if baggy pants were cool or not... (seriously just picture his tone of voice when he says this)

Nat and I just burst out into laughter. Man, this guy's damn funny. I even have a word doc now titled 'Hakim's Funny Quotes'
Haha.

Alrighty, I gotta do my OP script now! In desperate need of cutting it short.
Haha byeeee :)